Finally got to the beach!

K and me in the distance :)

We finally go to the beach, and not a day too early!  Autumn is here...but on this day it was nice and warm!!  We went to the Birling Gap, a National trust site...where you climb down the cliff and reach pebbly beach, with nice rock/tidepools and fantastic limestone cliffs in the distance!

Special K loved it too...pebbles are just as fun as sand to a near two year old, and cleaner too :)  We'll leave the sand to his pit at home! Dad took some great pics too! We also got K to wear the strawberry hat his grandmother knitted...who he will meet in December! 

We jumped in the water, layed in the warmer pools as the tide went out....walked on the pebbles...threw a few pebbles..looked at the rockpools....had lunch...and had a great relaxing day!!

Peessss

Nothing's sweeter than hearing pees when little k wants something....bum when a nappy diaper change is needed....and teaching him yeah yeah instead of no all the time.....so many little stories....each day I need to write them down before I forget...

50 days!

It's amazing that 50 days have passed since we've had our little one at our home! So much happens everyday....I know I need to write more....I would like to backtrack on a few stories so I don't forget! The latest fun is Special K saying my real name instead of mummy.... Also he is just starting with two word sentences...like my duck!

The duck is another story! We have a duck we can warm in the microwave and besides the bottle (sippy cup) this is his favourite comfort item! It is so cute to see him cuddle it! Ok....more retro stories to come.

Everything just comes naturally....as if it was meant to be...no regrets...no wants...just being :) very content. I will look forward, however, when we will be able to communicate more with our little man to discover what hes thinking and feeling!

Forest outting day four....

First day to the river...second day he's ours...

Raspberry Time...day 5

Day 5---first day at the house!

What a beautiful day!  No pictures today...but the foster family was here and the foster sibling...lil M....sun was out, the raspberries and strawberries were ripe, and lil K was exploring his new home...It was a fabulous day...  Pancakes were made, Greenbean our parrot was here to meet his new "brother"...it all went wonderfully.  Lil K loved his room and the garden, and played in the sandbox!  He fell a few times, but learned quickly on the spots he needed to be careful..such an agile boy!  Today we will be in the pool!!!  What a wonderful summer weekend to share our joy with our little boy!!

The Search Angel....cant wait to read!

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/arts/books-and-media/book-reviews/tish-cohens-new-novel-an-accomplished-look-at-adoption/article13025278/

A Picture is worth a 1000 Words.....

Day 4! The first full day outing...

Needless to say I am too tired to write at the moment...but I thought I would at least post a picture of little one and myself looking at the birds...  Also, happy fourth of July!

Notes to myself before I forget so that I can expand upon them later...

• nappy changing
• asda
• animals
• hide and seek

Day 3--getting closer

Today we spent almost all day with Special K until we went to bed...which was near 9 pm  We had a great day....bonding.. We took the little one out to the park while he was sleeping...and he didnt cry and my hubby took him out of the pram and he cuddled and fell asleep.  I later held him too while he was sleeping...When he finally woke, he wasnt frightened and didnt cry. We took him down the slide, and watched the birds... He loves animals...and is so patient watching birds and all animals...my kind of kid!

However, when we got to his home, he screamed bloody murder when I wanted to change his nappy/diaper.  Then, an amazing thing happened.  The day before I played with the bear we gave him and put on a nappy.  Later, he came to me with a nappy and asked me to put it on the bear and one on the dog...it was as if he was apologizing.....amazing!

We show him his welcome book at least a couple of times a day, so it really feels as though it is working...  He really seems to trust us now... Its been hard with the other two kids being in the house, as they are adorable and want attention too...especially one who has recently been brought back to the fosters after being at a home for 8 months...

you should see him in the shower.....the water just falls all over him and he doesnt mind....he slips and is right back up and does he love bubbles! so precious...cant wait for swimming classes!

Needless to say after all the excitement all the littleones had a hard time to sleep. K kept going and going and wouldn't stop.  With all the light outside and all the people in the house...its no wonder.  However, we can really see many things that we can provide to him that will make a difference.  Tomorrow we have a full day by ourselves with K, so we will see how it will go!!!

now time to wind down myself! 11 pm....
 

Special K!

Its hard to imagine we have known this little one for only two days!  I can't say he feels like he's ours....I can't even say son at the moment...but it just feels right.  Everything coming to this...yin and yang, fate, whatever you want to call it....



I have to say that I am not a picky person...I fight hard to look for all positive in everything...often to a point of argument! (LOL) But I am honest when I say that I couldnt have dreamt of a little one like him...not in a thousand years.  He's everything I wanted, and I wasn't demanding and didnt have a checklist...

Most importantly...he has the zest for life that my Dad wrote about me and I read after his death.  My parents fostered that zest and allowed me to keep it and now I can share it and preserve it with our little one!  Again, I feel guilty now, with such a high spririted chap who has only seen love...

We love everything about him...I cant imagine wanting to change him...I love him for his fight to do things himself...his independence.  I know that this will also be a challenge...but I don't see our little boy, I see this amazing individual who I want to spend time with, to challenge his little mind, however to protect him from his innocence and bravado. 

Just like Mom, the most important thing I want for him is to be happy....to enjoy life...to have the security and fearless in life that he can do anything he wants, if he wants too....and to suck the marrow out of life!  Another day has begun!

The boy's behaviour...: Meaningful memory making

The boy's behaviour...: Meaningful memory making: When Mini first came home, I didn't dwell on the 'firsts' I'd missed. We just got on with it and started creating our own tr...

Second Day

It feels like we have known K for such a long time...not just 4 hours!  Today was a full day, but still we have no responsibility...just observation.  I brought him berries from the garden (enough for him and others) and he gobbled them up!  We went to the park with him and the other child, and they forever fed the pigeons and squirrels and ran to pet dogs in the park.  We saw a large group of 20 prams and momma joggers go by...and I could not wait to have Special K in it to go to the river!

He hurt himself a little and bled, and then he cried, but most times he falls, he just gets up ...such an incredibly sturdy little kid!  He wants to do everything himself, and I admire that in him, but know when we will have to say no it will be difficult.  However, he does listen, and he is such a brilliant little kid....so, so smart...  Hopefully, that little pouty red lip will not get the best of me...

At lunch he ate so well....not to say that he didnt try to throw things once or twice, but understood no...he also noted when his nappy needed changing...he took a nap after being in the car, but woke up with the foster parents where not there... He cried but let me hold him, but could not be consoled...the foster sister held him and was able to calm him.  I was fine, and patient, and know my time will come.  I want to allow the fosters there time to enjoy him and be on top, and a time to mourn...I always want them to be a part of his family.

Afterwards, when we started to say goodbye, once we walked to the door, he started to become upset... Needless to say, that was satisfying....he wasn't deeply sad, but we were building the bonds....slowly.  We cannot wait to fill this child with love and knowledge.... he has had such a wonderful world there, but we can give him so much too!!!!  He loved looking at the welcome book again...and we can see he is starting to understand....

It will be hard in the beginning at our house, but I have all the patience in the world for this wonderful, wonderful boy.  What I have begun to realize is no matter how gifted this one is, my heart goes out to the others...as I saw his foster brother meet us for the first time, a child who was just sent back after 8 months with a foster family...and he so wanted to bond with us...it broke my heart, it broke my heart. How I wanted to undo what has been done to him...how I knew what was done to him might make it that much harder for someone to take him in and have the patience to love him for who he is and let him blossom...EMPATHY and pain...

That was the end to a great day, but a realization of how many wonderful ones are out there and how sad, how sad!

First Day

The first day was amazing...we only spent 4 hours with our little one and the bond was immediate.  He is so absolutely precious...so bright, inquisitive, and adorable.....I felt so lucky...so blessed that he has come our way and into our lives. 

I cuddled with him in a tent as well as tussled about, he played with my hair and in the end pulled it a little :)  He can already say "bean" our parrot and has seen the welcome book.  He relates well to my hubby as well.  The picture of me holding him for the first time speaks volumes! Contentment :)

The first big step

I don't know what gives you the energy to write in a blog for the first time....  Perhaps its anxiety and the feelings you need to get out. I suppose that's the case with any writer. I am a nervous ball of energy and enthusiasm--- trying to harness this power by putting down the words...to capture the moment!

Well, in a few days we will have see our little one for the first time....we are almost over the pain of waiting.  I am storing my teardrops...although my tearducts aren't leakproof at the moment.  I have never felt such a buildup of emotion in any other time in my life.  Needless to say, it is quite overwhelming. 

I just managed to get the page created before grabbing the phone to speak to an adopter who I have been speaking with to let her know the good news...now I am back again and about to submit this first page at the end of one journey and the beginning of another.

Did I tell you we were matched and we are about to ADOPT THE MOST FANTASTIC BABY BOY?  I don't have the candy cigars...so I'll use block case instead! I hope to entertain you in the next few months with all the fun and struggles of a new parent and adopter!!